Archive for January, 2009

Freak OUT!

Hey there whoever is actually reading this!

Been a couple days for me to get back to this due to my weekend preventing me from getting reading for classes done – so the past few days I’ve been doing some rapid catch up. Tonight I couldn’t focus so I figured I’d blog a bit before bed.

Since last Saturday was so devoted to cleaning, I wanted to post some pictures I took (a bit lame, I realize), but I’m proud of it. Plus, it was really messy! Have to prove to someone, even if it is the blogsphere, that I am capable of cleaning and maintaining. But anywho, I’ll post those in a few days or something, I’m too tired at the moment to fight with my camera and its memory card.

I have also written down some topics I want to blog about, so I think I might actually be able to keep up with the blog this go-around!

So, title today is “Freak OUT!” The reason being that I am literally freaking out. Minor panic attack, of sorts. Graduation from college. May 17. Less than 4 months away. Bad economy. I need a job! A full-time job! With benefits! It is really difficult right now to find anything. Well, I can find jobs, The problem is that I am not qualified for 99.9% of them! Some want 2-3 years of professional job experience, most want super-high GPAs, internships, you name it. I’ve got 5+ years of consistent job experience – but not professional. I am majoring in Foreign Affairs, with a 2.7 GPA. Not great, I realize. I’m not dumb. I got into this University, so I must be at least “somewhat” intelligent. I am a quick-learner, a perfectionist, and actually like to work (though I may complain about certain aspects of my job).

Anything with the federal government would be great. Unfortunately is confusing, and again, it is difficult to find anything truly entry-level that I qualify for. I have also been looking at non-profits and NGOs. Not too much luck there, either. And then I have been looking for secretarial positions through CraigsList and various regular job sites; can you believe that almost all secretarial job postings require 2+ years secretarial experience? Answering phones, typing, scheduling…Not to say that some of these thing do not require some skill and a certain finesse, but really? It is not the kind of job that is going to take you that long to pick up the necessary skills. Attention Employers: We can’t get this required experience unless you hire us!!

I will try not to bitch this much in the future – but the whole job thing simply frightens the hell out of me! With school work, it is difficult to find the time to looks for jobs, get reading done, do my job, AND maintain some kind of social life in the attempts to maintain my sanity!

Anyway, this latest freak out was brought about by the arrival of a Spring Job and Internship Fair taking place this Thursday and Friday here at the University and my non-existent desire to attend. Last career fair I went to was disastrous (recruiter for the CIA – I just wanted info btw – was a complete ass and told me my GPA wasn’t high enough to even be considered, regardless of the rest of my resume). Oh, he was an ass prior to his claim, he is not an ass just because he rejected me, just wanted to make that clear. Anyway, since then I have not had any desire to go back to any career fairs, and while I know I need to get over this (immediately), I just do not see much of a point in going. And I have class during the time of the fair, so I honestly cannot go. In addition to the career fair I recalled an info session for University Guides, a program started by an alumnus/alumnae and now endorsed by AmeriCorps. I had initially nixed it because 1) it pays $20,000 a year for you to help troubled or weak high schools increase their number of students going into some kind of secondary education (either vocational, 2-year, or 4-year). Not a lot of money for you doing a 2-year commitment. And the second reason was that I was not sure if I would be ideal for such a job – I get annoyed easily and while it is more of a counselor position than teacher, I never planned on going into an educational setting. But anyway, I started thinking about it tonight and was like “you know, no one else is responding to me, and it is a guaranteed full-time job, with benefits, for 2 years…” But I looked up the application and it and 2 recommendations and an essay are due in 2 days, so that dashed any chance of that happening. I cannot expect Debbie and Pam (the supervisors I have had at the library, and who love me) to come up with recommendations that quickly. So, I started freaking out.

Alright, that is enough bitching and moaning. Hopefully typing it all out has helped me some, so I can go to sleep without resumes and applications and cardboard boxes and jerk recruiters running through brain over and over and over again. But for some assurance, I took some tylenol PM so it will keep the obsessing brief, hopefully.
Again sorry about the negativity! I promise that it will be more pleasant in the future (though I am sure this will not be the last time I worry about jobs here on the blog).

Night loves!



I just cannot stop, can I? haha. I was looking through my journal and noticed that I had kept a list of books I read this past summer. And I can look at old syllabi to find out which books I read in my classes. I am a total nerd, I am fully aware of this fact, haha.

the Favorites:
The Vampire Lestat  Anne Rice
The Queen of the Damned  Anne Rice
Dead Until Dark  Charlaine Harris
The Thirteenth Tale  Diane Setterfield
New Moon  Stephenie Meyer
A Wolf at the Table  Augusten Burroughs
The Omnivore’s Dilemma  Michael Pollan
Living Dead in Dallas  Charlaine Harris
Eclipse  Stephenie Meyer
Club Dead  Charlaine Harris
Dead to the World  Charlaine Harris
People of the Book  Geraldine Brooks
Midnight in the Garden of Good & Evil  John Berendt
Dead as a Doornail  Charlaine Harris
The Shadow of the Wind  Carlos Ruiz Zafon
My Pet Virus: The True Story of a Rebel Without a Cure  Shawn Decker

the Good/Average ones:
Garden Spells  Sarah Addison Allen
HeartSick  Chelsea Cain
The Story of French  Jean-Benoît Nadeau & Julie Barlow
The Society of S  Susan Hubbard
The $64 Tomato  William Alexander
Sex With Kings: 500 Years of Adultery, Power, Rivalry & Revenge  Eleanor Herman

the “Engh” ones:
Fat Girl  Judith Moore
Bleedout  Joan Brady
I Have the Right to Destroy Myself  Young-Ha Kim

texts for Classes:
Stiff: The Curious Lives of Cadavers  Mary Roach +++++
Life After Life  Raymond A. Moody, Jr 
Confronting Death: Values, Institutions, & Human Mortality  David Wendell Moller 
50 Facts That Should Change the World  Jessica Williams
Genocide: A Comprehensive Introduction  Adam Jones 
Night  Elie Wiesel 
Burglars on the Job: Streetlife and Residential Break-Ins  Richard T. Wright
Why Crime Rates Fell  John E. Conklin
In Search of Dracula: The History of Dracula & Vampires  Radu Florescu
Vampire Lore  Jan Louis Perkowski 
Dracula  Bram Stoker

Alright, so 36 books. Not too shabby I would say. And there are likely a couple more left unmentioned simply because I cannot remember back to the beginning of 2008. Noticing the titles, yes, I do have a fondness for vampire stories of all kinds, and then ended up taking a class on Dracula and Slavic Culture, so lots of Vampirey titles. Hopefully I can beat that number this year!


Depending on how much I use the blog, the book list will likely be continuously moved so that it is always the most recent post, or close to most recent. (if I can do that, I haven’t really wrangled with Blogger that much to know if that’s possible. 

I’ll continue finagling with the blog itself a little later; (there are gadgets apparently?!) But for now, I need to stop avoiding my reading for classes!
Tomorrow it is off to Short Pump to have my macbook looked at – the DVD drive is funky. Keeps saying that it is “skipping damaged area” on brand new DVDs. Shane will be meeting me there, as I am inept with computers and liable to not tell the Genius Bar everything. It should be nice to see him. And hopefully they can fix my baby. I got it over the summer so Shane says it is still covered by warranty. (Thank goodness, because I’ve got enough credit card debt to pay off as it is, haha.) 
Alright, seriously. Back to work!


So, for some reason I’ve decided to start posting a little more to this, even though I haven’t touched it in 2 or so years. Since the only thing I can be consistent with is books, I think that might be what I keep it to, maybe an occasional airing of thoughts if I feel I need more than the 160 or so character limit on twitter. Oh, don’t judge me on the previous posts you see, I thought I was going to use this blog for talking about articles and current events so thus the rather passionate writing. 

Anyways, saw someone set up a simple outline for books that they’ve read, so I feel like I’ll imitate it, changing it a bit. And I’ll add to it throughout the year. 

Favorite Books
Average Books
Unimpressive Books 
School Books

I figure this will be a nice way to just see simple progress and see what I achieve in a given year. 
If you’re interested in seeing all the books I have in my collection, or all the books I’ve read, check out my profiles on – (library) (profile)
OR –

Feel free to add me as a friend or whatever they call it on those sites. Always up for discussing books, though until graduation in May, I won’t have as many to discuss since school reading takes up most of my time! 

PS I was going to add another post and start out 2009, but I have class in the morning and I have yet again gotten caught up in something instead of going to bed!! haha! So I’ll get to it soon, promise!